Is it ever possible to have lived ENOUGH?

"I hope the rising radiation from the chemical reactors didn't make more mothers lose their children, more youth physically and mentally devastated with no hope for future, more elderly cry in pain" - my thoughts kept building up, when suddenly the Times of India blared on my face and said out loud, "Japan on brink of N-Catastrophe as 3rd reactor explodes in 3 days...3 more on boil..." Other news items about Indian parliamentary issues, rape cases, sensex losses and more became surprisingly insignificant. Could any pain be compared to that of the Japanese at this moment?

The most hardworking people on earth, the only ones to have faced two nuclear attacks would have to prove their mettle again, make the dead land seem prettier than before... its unfair, very unfair...

Reading the follow up's of Japan, I tell myself, " How sad it would be if I had no other choice but to die at my age. I've just begun to get big ideas about my future, I've just begun to appreciate what I have and don't have...i still haven't loved enough, hated enough, dated enough, struggled enough, exercised enough, eaten enough...i still have to experience life as a wife, a daughter-in-law, a mother, a business woman, a cook, a writer and what not! The countless who were mercilessly beaten by the catastrophic combination of earthquakes and Tsunami have died leaving behind their countless dreams, aspirations...maybe some of them wanted to read more, some to drink more, others to simply...'live' more.

And so no matter how much we chant the mantra of 'Live Each Day as if it is your Last' nobody really wants to die... but then, considering everyone has to give up this world sooner or later, the least we can do is to be aware of our mortality, and remain humble in our actions...